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Rather Be

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Published: Apr 24, 2014

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^{i.
tonight i am free from my obligational romantic ties to you.
tonight i am free and that is wonderful.

ii.

it is also a tad frightening,
i am not used to this lightness in my chest
and i fear that when i take a step
i'll merely float away.

iii.
for what am i without someone to love?
who am i without someone to love?
loving myself seems like an impossible task because
there are too many flaws to fix,
too many errors and hidden personality flaws that snarl at me in the mirror.

perhaps i shouldn't look at myself in a razor's surface.

iv.
sadness has never tasted so delicious,
jealousy never quite as potent as it is as of late.

this angry heart of mine is snarling at the thought of someone possessing what i had,
or thought anyway,
was mine.

perhaps, perhaps that is where the problem starts.

v.
darling i don't need your wind to help these battered wings fly,
i have come to enjoy the ground
as it seems every time i fly
i get shot down
or burned by something that, against my will,
i cannot survive without.

vi.
i know come the morrow i will not be as free with my emotions,
so disastrously careless my words and how i craft them.
i could destroy you, love,
i could take your fears and manipulate them with you,
i could take every secret you've ever intrusted me with and tell them to the world but i won't.

i think that is what true love is.

giving someone the power to destroy you but trusting that, maybe this time, they won't.

vii.

i still wake up expecting you to have unleashed a nuclear bomb in my life.

i'm not sure if i will ever stop expecting you to destroy me.

i should probably see someone about my decidedly untrusting nature,
which is in part because trust is for fools
and because i can't be bothered to explain this train wreck of a girl that i have the (mis)fortune of calling
me.

viii.

you were not the right person, either.

you were the sun when i needed the sea.

you were the earth when i needed the sky.

you were a drifting cloud when i wanted a playful otter.

the difference between us, though, is that
you let that define our relationship and more, what we could be.

people change, love. it's a scientific fact that until the age of 25 or so we are not set in stone so,
your prince charming could turn out to be a beast in human skin.

while your wolf could shed her wolfen cloak and reveal herself to be everything you needed.

ix.

could be.

sadly i won't be.

damn shame.

x.
i will regret these words come the morrow but tonight i am free and flamboyant in my misery
careless with my words

tonight my wolves howl all they like, my lions roar and i shall spread my wings and have one last taste of the sky,
glide as close to the sun as i dare before i condemn myself to the ground forever.

freedom tasted wonderful but you, dear, taste infinitely better
and might i say,
it would be an absolute pleasure to be grounded so long as you are by my side.}

^{[Verse 1:]
We're a thousand miles from comfort, we have traveled land and sea
But as long as you are with me, there's no place I'd rather be
I would wait forever, exalted in the scene
As long as I am with you, my heart continues to beat

[Pre-Chorus:]
With every step we take, Kyoto to The Bay
Strolling so casually
We're different and the same, get you another name
Switch up the batteries

[Chorus:]
If you gave me a chance I would take it
It's a shot in the dark but I'll make it
Know with all of your heart, you can't shake me
When I am with you, there's no place I'd rather be
N-n-n-no, no, no, no place I'd rather be [3x]

[Verse 2:]
We staked out on a mission to find our inner peace
Make it everlasting so nothing's incomplete
It's easy being with you, sacred simplicity
As long as we're together, there's no place I'd rather be

[Pre-Chorus]

[Chorus]

When I am with you, there's no place I'd rather be

[Bridge:]
Hmmmmmmmmmm, hoooooooooo
Be [9x]
Yeah-e-yeah-e-yeah-e-yeah-e-yeah, yeah, yeah

[Chorus]

When I am with you, there's no place I'd rather be

Rather Be - Clean Bandit

There is a lot going through my mind and tonight I don't give a fuck about trying to be discreet or play nicely. These are my feelings. If you can't handle them then kindly step the fuck off so someone more worthy can.

^{^{Also side note this is about like -squints- three people}}}

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NaPoWriMo 2014